I have so little courage…

I’m typing a blog right now that I am afraid to let the world see. My eyes are filling with moisture as I write, I’m emotional because I’m afraid of what others will think. I bet that is a shock to many, because I usually speak my mind so freely…

By the way, my fear is only about the ridicule that I will receive from people who call themselves “Christian”. It seems that my atheist friends / acquaintances always treat me fairly and with respect, it is only religious folks I know who yell, ignore, defriend, and mock my faith. It is religious people who say there is no hope for me… amazing – a pastor actually said that to me recently, “There is no hope for you, Josh” even when I pointed out that we were supposed to be giving hope, not taking it… he never said a single word of apology. He never took back those words. I was amazed then, and still am obviously today.

I received an email from a Pastor yesterday asking about my opinion, he actually said “I write to you because I value your opinion on such matters. I see you as a critical thinker and a biblical thinker.” That was humbling… and shocking considering the treatment I’ve been getting from religious leaders.

A friend of mine wrote this on facebook today and it was her words that made me embarrassed that I hadn’t been more open with my words. Here is what she wrote: “I hope you Evangelical’s are happy……I am on a rant , so bear with me. So angry, to the point I could cry for the way we as the church are looked at by the world. I work with all Evangelical’s who are gloating over the fact that Amendment One (defining marriage between one man & one women) passed. I could take it no longer, I piped up that I voted against it….a look of shock…I explained that I don’t want the government intruding in our lives. That although I don’t approve of a gay lifestyle, I don’t think it’s our business. I got the argument “well, the Bible clearly says…” I said: Where does it stop, do we outlaw divorce too, the bible is clearly against divorce too, how about heterosexual couples living together, do we outlaw that? Silence…I proceeded to tell them about a Barna poll that asked young non-christians what Christian’s stood for, and their answer: They hate gay’s…..I said that Jesus only had harsh words for the religious, not the sinners, He was known for hanging with sinners, but we don’t want to get dirty, so we pass laws……..Silence…..My heart breaks!!! We are known for the very opposite of what we should be known for!!!! How has your church gotten so far from your heart, forgive us….”

Another friend of my admitted to a pastor that she would be voting against the amendment, he told her that he never wanted to see or talk to her again. He said that she was disowned… if she would vote for the fags, (his words not mine) then she was no better than them!” Novel idea, pastor… I believe we are no better than anyone else. My mom (I’m so thankful for her teaching in my life – even though we probably voted differently on every point yesterday) used to tell me when I was too young to understand, “Josh, no one is better than you, but you better never forget that you are no better than anyone else!” Great words to live by. I pray my kids hear that enough from me that they never forget it.

Here’s my response to the pastor who asked me for advice yesterday about the Marriage Amendment…

I did a podcast about this, so I’m not afraid to speak about my opinion to this. (Well I wasn’t to him, but I was afraid today… Religious people go ahead and write me off, I can’t worry about what you think.) You can listen to that, or I’ll give you my short answer here… I’ve been back and forth on this. At first it was obvious – FOR, then I heard the fears of domestic violence – AGAINST, then I realized that was a lie, FOR… then I thought about why are we doing this, AGAINST, then I realized that we are killing Muslims as a country and war hasn’t even been legally declared – so why on earth are we wasting our time with this garbage, AGAINST… then I prayed… “God, does this really matter…?” I think His answer to me… this isn’t for everyone and I wouldn’t tell you, except you asked… (Now, I’m sharing it with everyone… things can change overnight.) PLEASE DON’T ASSUME I’M WRITING THIS LIKE IT IS PROPHECY OR A WORD FROM GOD, I DIDN’T HEAR AN AUDIBLE VOICE AND I KNOW THAT THIS WAS SOMEWHAT MY MIND, BUT I HEARD IT AS IF IT WAS ALSO SOMEHOW THE MIND OF CHRIST… “Josh, the results of this vote are less important than the fight and you can’t vote against the fight… the fight itself says that My people are more concerned still with sin and standing in anger against other people than they are about healing people and helping them know that I love them. One time the people demanded the right to divorce, and I’ve always tried to protect them from the danger of divorce (or degrading marriage in anyway), it was never My plan, but they wanted it, begged for it, and were going to live in hatred toward each other whether I allowed divorce or not… so I allowed it under some circumstances. It wasn’t My will, but the people needed to stop focusing on rights, and sin, and fighting and just believe that I love them. Josh, they are going to live however they want, I already gave that freedom… now We, you and I have to keep loving them… So vote how you want, just be sure that you don’t use this issue as another opportunity for believers to show disdain for unbelievers… I love them, and their sin doesn’t repel me… I WILL overlook and forgive their sin, just like I do yours.”

I’ve never done that before… shared so detailed what I feel like I heard from God. Some would get angry about that… as if I could speak for God. That wasn’t my heart, I’m just sharing what I felt like He was saying to my heart… We have the mind of Christ, 1 Cor 2:16.

Well there it was… I’m sure some are ticked, and some wrote me off before I posted this… I love them anyway, and I pray that someday we can make loving God and loving one-another primary, not our fight against and focus on sin.

Don’t forget to scroll down a bit to ask for or demand that this movie come to Hickory!

NOTE here that I am posting an email from Steve Taylor – not my writing below, his. Steve Taylor is the director of Blue Like Jazz, Blue Like Jazz was originally a great book written by Donald Miller. I recommend both the movie and the book.

An Unexpected Phone Call
by Steve Taylor

I got a most unexpected call Saturday night. It was from Alex Kendrick, director of a string of hit movies from Sherwood Pictures. He was warm, humble and generous on the call, and we spoke for over twenty minutes.

He explained how he and his brother/filmmaking partner Stephen had no prior knowledge that their church’s Executive Pastor (who is also an Executive Producer on their movies) had issued the edict last year that I described in a previous blog, wherein he let it be known that anybody who worked on Blue Like Jazz would not be working on future Sherwood Baptist movies. Alex told me that, while he and his brother are members of the church and have worked closely with this pastor in the past, they disagreed with his decision, and he further confirmed that none of them, including the pastor, have seen Blue Like Jazz.

I was grateful for both the call from Alex and the spirit behind it. Without putting words in his mouth, I got the sense that he was as surprised by their pastor’s edict as I was. I think it was a difficult phone call for Alex to make—he wanted to distance himself from the edict without distancing himself from the man—so I didn’t press Alex for more details beyond the fact that it happened and the Kendrick Brothers weren’t involved.

As I’ve stated before, I have great respect for what Alex and his brother have accomplished as filmmakers. Making movies is hard. They’ve had extraordinary success using very limited resources, and each time they do it they get better. We’ve had a number of their fans tell us how much they liked Blue Like Jazz, and Alex and I agreed that there are a variety of ways for Christians to approach storytelling. We’re humbled and grateful that he reached out to us in such a direct and personal way.

Near the end of our conversation, I asked Alex if he wanted me to do a follow-up blog relating our discussion, and he said he’d leave that to my discretion. So since my assumptions about them proved wrong, I want to relay the gracious spirit behind the phone call of a Christian brother who wanted to make things right.

If you don’t watch the whole video… at least watch the 3 minute mark through the 5 minute mark. I think you’ll enjoy.

I wanted to warn some friends today… I WANT TO SCREAM TO EVERYONE I KNOW WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! Calvinism or reformed theology is growing at an alarming rate and it is an EVIL LIE. The problem is many don’t know they are lying but some have simply fallen victim to the *spiral of silence.

Because I didn’t want to offend them, I prayed asking God for wisdom about how to warn… As I was praying, God reminded me of an email I just received from someone I deeply love and am very close to. This close loved one attends a Calvinist Church, and I felt like God was telling me that I could warn anyone that I loved like that. Love covers a multitude of sin, so people that know you love them won’t get offended.

Here’s the email and my response.

Subject line: ‘Hunger Games’ posts one of the best opens in history – Los Angeles Business from bizjournals
Inside: Did you see it yet?

My response:
We got to see it yesterday at 5:15. I liked it. I fought back tears during the reaping… Katniss’ sacrifice for her sister was beautiful, makes me want to love like that.

I was just praying for you and others in situations like yours…

A couple we love, attend a church where the Pastor is introducing some doctrines of Calvinism right now… they are really upset and praying about what to do… they want to stay and fight but they don’t know if they have the courage and they aren’t sure that they have the influence to make a difference. We have other friends / families that are currently visiting Calvinist churches… I was just sitting here sick for them. My heart breaks because I can’t think of a nastier evil religion than Calvinism… I know there are other religions of hate, but this one makes God the one who hates His own creation. Calvinism teaches that God made some people for the sole purpose of hating them and placing them in eternal conscious torment – this is the opposite of the God I know. The God I know, is LOVE. Calvinist say they worship a God of love, because they believe they are in the group that God created to love and they ignore the other group. I’ve been praying for those families this morning and wondering if I should say any more to warn them… I don’t want to offend them, or share with them at the wrong time… so I decided to pray.

As I prayed, I felt like God brought you to my mind. That’s when I realized… I know you can handle it if I offend you, and you’ll still love me no matter what I say. I also know that I love you enough that I’ll be blunt and as loving as I possibly can. So I guess I’m using you, to help me be blunt and honest and at the same time loving…. our relationship makes that easy. I think that is a good thing, and a compliment to you. I love you so much, and can’t express enough what you’ve meant to my life, my relationship with Christ, and my journey as a human being.

I think I’ve warned, and I think I’ve told you before that Calvinism impacts every word a teacher / preacher says… I know you’ve not heard blatant hate speech from your pastor and maybe he doesn’t really believe like other Calvinists… I remember for years being taught that the Catholic Church was a false church and that they were all dead wrong, eternally wrong. That teaching caused me to group all Catholics in with the Orthodox Catholic Doctrine, I now know that was a mistake. I know that was a mistake, because I later discovered that some Catholics don’t actually believe the false doctrine of their Catholic Church or priest. My heart then changed toward Catholics… I still don’t totally understand why Catholics continue to call themselves Catholic, but I respect that every family has to do what God directs them personally to do. I say that, because I want to think that way with Calvinists as well. Every reformed (reformed and Calvinist are nearly synonymous) church isn’t necessarily made up of only people that believe that God made some people to love and others to hate even though that is the key component of Calvinist doctrine. On a side note, I’m not sure Calvin believed the crazy 5 points of TULIP that is now called by his name. But his doctrine did lead him toward hating people who didn’t agree with him – his directing that green wood (so Servetus would burn slower and experience more pain) be used on Michael Servetus as he was burned at the stake makes that pretty clear.

What I would be most concerned about is this… placing myself under the leadership and authority of a man who understands Calvinism and allows that doctrine to be his standard or scriptural filter. When all teaching and scripture interpretation is filtered through the 5 tenants of Calvinism… it’s like drinking from polluted water. It may quench the thirst today, but eventually it will make you sick… in this illustration Calvinistic doctrine is the water and a person doesn’t become physically ill, but sick because they are filled with hate. If you make God a hateful God, you’ve either made a God in your image, and / or you will become like the God you worship.

Here is a Calvinistic Hymn (of course most Calvinist Churches wouldn’t sing this, but this is the fruit of Reformed Theology):
We are the Lord’s elected few,
Let all the rest be damned;
There is room enough in hell for you,
We won’t have heaven crammed!**

Are you currently listening to the weekly talks from aplacetotalk? We’ve been discussing the 5 points of Calvinism over the last 5 weeks, week one was introduction (reformation history that one may be a bit boring) but weeks 2 – 5 (5 is this coming Sunday) were or are the 5 points covered.

I love you, and I didn’t really write this for you. I decided a good while back that you and I disagree about Calvinism’s danger but, I know you aren’t following any man and I know you know God Himself and you therefore don’t need my direction or input. I know you are a “partaker of the divine nature” 2 Peter 1, and I know that “the anointing which you received from Him abides in you, and you have no need for anyone to teach you; but as His anointing teaches you about all things, and is true and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you abide in Him.” 1 John 2:27. I could go on and on but I won’t.

I love you. As Christ indwells me I know that I love all the others that will read these words too.

Josh

Well that was my email… and that is my BLOG WARNING!

 

*Spiral of Silence
**Dr. L Vance, The Other Side of Calvinism, 2002, p 300

 

First to my atheist friends – I mean no disrespect to you with this joke. If you know me you know that I enjoy talking to my atheist friends often times more than I do Religious people.

Now to the religious folks – If you will be offended by a single word of profanity, please stop reading now. A few days back I posted a picture on Facebook, it was a church advertising that prominently displayed the letters WTF. Someone rebuked everyone who saw the letters and thought something vulgar, but I hadn’t said anything to plant bad vulgar in anyone’s mind. I just posted the picture and said “…shouldn’t someone in a church know this was a bad idea.” The rebuke implied that a pure minded Christian wouldn’t even know that WTF stood for something vulgar. I went through all the comments wondering, what clued this person to the vulgar meaning of WTF but there was nothing there. Her implication that our heads shouldn’t have been in the gutter, caused me to wonder if there was anyway to come to this conclusion without her mind being in the same proverbial gutter.

Ok, enough talk… here’s the joke:
Little Girl On A Plane

An atheist was seated next to a little girl on an airplane and he turned to her and said,

“Do you want to talk? Flights go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger.”

The little girl, who had just started to read her book, replied to the total stranger,

“What would you want to talk about?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” said the atheist.

“How about why there is no God, or no Heaven or Hell, or no life after death?” as he smiled smugly.

“OK,” she said.

“Those could be interesting topics but let me ask you a question first. A horse, a cow, and a deer all eat the same stuff – grass. Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cow turns out a flat patty, but a horse produces clumps. Why do you suppose that is?”

The atheist, visibly surprised by the little girl’s intelligence, thinks about it and says,

“Hmmm, I have no idea.”

To which the little girl replies, “Do you really feel qualified to discuss God, Heaven and Hell, or life after death, when you don’t know shit?”

And then she went back to reading her book.

Interesting church video...

This is a photo of the credits - surprising.

I got a video the other day titled, Spiders on Drugs and I ignored it for three days but I didn’t delete it because I felt sure it would be interesting. Well it was… interesting, surprising, and odd. Now before you watch, let me warn you there is profanity so this may not be for little kids.

The shocker for me was the credits, because this video was made by a church. I wasn’t offended, and I’m not knocking a church for making this video – it is kinda funny. I was just surprised and I thought you might be too.

Ok, here’s the video:

For those of you who don’t believe love is enough, I’d have to argue that you simply haven’t experienced real love.

In America today we’ve redefined love so poorly that we no longer understand even a glimpse of what real love does. In a real atmosphere of love, hierarchy is meaningless. In a real atmosphere of love, rules are totally pointless. In a real atmosphere of love there is no need for anything else. If you are thinking that God is still necessary with love, again I’d argue that you may not understand love because God is Love. Love isn’t one of God’s characteristics, Love is the very essence of God.

Love never stops. Mistreatment doesn’t stop love, rejection doesn’t hinder love, death may stop many other things but it will NOT put an end to love.

With Kendall Marshall going down to a broken wrist last night, I can’t help but think of the opportunity that Larry Drew II would have had this week if he would’ve stood strong when a freshman Marshall took his starting job.

I know, many Carolina fans are screaming – WE WOULDN’T HAVE DREW BACK under any circumstance… and I understand those thoughts.

But, if he would’ve stood strong and played a great back-up role as a junior last year he wouldn’t be the whinny quitter that no one wants anything to do with. If he had stayed, played back-up and continued to learn the system – Marshall would be playing 30 minutes a game and Drew would be getting 10. Drew would be ready for his shot by now and this team would be poised to overcome and Drew would be in position to get a shot at playing in a professional league after taking over for an injured All-American point guard as a senior. Ok, I admit Drew probably doesn’t have the skill set to make the NBA but because of his decision to quit last year, he also has failed to prove that he has the resolve to be hired at McDonald’s. I’m sorry to be so rude, but finish the year at the very least.

Well, because he quit – I prefer the Heels’ chances with Watts, White, and Henson manning the point but if he were the kind of guy to stick with it and fight for playing time – I’d love to have him.

NEWS ABOUT MARSHALL – I think Marshall is having surgery today, rumor is that his dad thinks he may actually be able to play by Friday if the surgery is as routine as possible. He will be in pain and limited, but he could play. Here is a video describing Marshall’s surgery: